hi blogspot

been in hiding for so long - perhaps its cos the journey hasnt been one that has been too exciting ... although i think that's really quite wrong cos it has been exciting but not the kind of excitement that i like ... seriously, i dont care that goshen's not as easy to claim as i thot it wld be, i do somewhat care that i am now fat n .. yet, deep within me, while this irritates me, it doesnt really disturb me as much as the fact that i am backsliding ... i cant seem to sense jesus as much and i dont quite enjoy sitting in his presence as much as i use to. in ihop they tell me that the wilderness is really good - yet lord, i say to you that the wilderness is not fun cos i cant see you and i cant hear your voice - n most of all, i am so afraid that i will fall into sin ... so help me lord not to fall but to rise above all the troubles ... lord pls speak to me

even as you have been telling me abt jesus the judge, ouch jesus, hide me under the canopy of your love that i will not be afraid but delighted that u will defend me. i love u jesus and i really desire the day when i can see your face ...

ps, i miss you badly