dear jesus,

its your birthday and i love you dearly ... i am very distracted with everything but you yet in my heart of hearts, there is still this longing that i will be completely sold out to you ... so pls jesus, give me a big kiss this christmas ... LET ME SEE YOUR FACE AND LET ME FEEL YOUR BURNING HEART FOR ME!!!!!! yup, do something that this heart of mine will become 10000000% in love with you !!!! kiss me with the kisses of a deeper revelation of who you are so that all the false wine in this world cannot have a hold on me ... show me something new abt you so that this boredom and distraction will be replaced by a wow in my spirit

yup, my spirit is so bored and i am so tired of parties and food!!!! yes lord, NO MORE CHRISTMAS PARTIES ... unless you are going to be there!!! yes, and give me the grace to fast from tomorrow onwards - cos i really need my heart to be tenderised ... but more than a tender heart, i need u to show me a new side of you that i have never seen before

hey jesus, i am still your favourite one and i am still longing to see your face and to know your heart ... so this christmas, let me know what you are thinking and what you are feeling ... i really want to know you intimately ... yes, i want you to share yr thots, secrets, longings, pain, and i want to be the one that will minister to you ... so teach me how to be the esther that will captivate your heart ... yes, i will leave my father's house (psalm 45 :10) and i will let you be God!!!!

jesus, i love you dearly ... while i am thrilled by what you are doing, the biggest christmas gift you can give me is INTIMACY WITH YOU ... and the biggest gift i guess i can give you is ... INTIMACY AND MY WHOLE HEART!!! so help me jesus

your lover
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