my friend nancy is having some íssues'with her son on how to run the business ... not major except its heartwarming cos she knows her children will take the business to a higher level since that's their inheritance ... yet, she also desires that whatever the lord has placed in her husband n her heart ie to free the oppress, to love others n to always give others a second chance is something that her children will catch. i find it delightful even as i know surely this must be the walk of david n solomon ... so my blessing for nancy n her family is that her solomons will have the wisdom of solomon but the heart of david, like what her husband n she have been chasing after...

My shop has some issues - not major ... yet, this issue has shown me how uninvolved i have been with the people's lives ... i do repent if i have not been a blessing - i wonder if this is a sin of ommission ie i act blur or am really blur abt what's happening. i pray that i will get a chance to really make a difference to the lives of all around me... not through my naggings but simply through being like jesus ... have mercy on me jesus that i will really be the person i am created to be. i guess all i can say is not by might, power but simply by the spirit. lord, i believe in u and i belong to u.

i went into my two nieces blogs and was pleasantly surprised... infact, reading pammy's blog brought a tear to my eye. didnt realise that she was going through a hard time ... yet at the end of her last blog, she cld still say GOD IS GOOD ...

i guess as an aunt, the best reward is to see my next gen chasing after jesus. perhaps intimacy is second nature to them, i dont know. yet what i know is that jesus is really something that is so part of them that all they talk abt is jesus ... i pray that this will be the inheritance of my family. that we will love only him.

i've been through good times, i've been through bad times. one thing i must say is that jesus has and will always be there for me and only he can truly fulfil the longings in my heart. my prayer is that this will be the only thing that my family n i will live for. that our lives will be wasted on him

something from my friend Tommy ... I believe this is my inheritance, this is what I was destined and created for. Yes, soon I suspect I will return to the marketplace, setting up my own business if God wills; yet, in my heart,my desire is that I will always be a temple girl. My prayer is that I will always find time to sit in the House of the Lord gazing at my beautiful Jesus. Sitting at His precious feet just discovering who He truly is. Sitting with other like-minded people knowing that this life is transient and that we have something better waiting for us ... that life is so fleeting yet our inheritance is so awesome. Truly Jesus is altogether worth it to waste my life on ... and yours too ...

MessiahMin@aol.com wrote: Morning by Morning, Wednesday 7-13-05 -- Anointing of Anna

Good morning, Lord Jesus. I love You, Lord, and I thank You for loving me. By Your grace, I humble myself as best as I can to sit in the silence of surrender to You, to wait for the leading of Your Spirit, and to watch for the coming of the glory of Your manifest presence in the arms of my Father. ...

"There was also a prophet, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher. She was of a great age, having lived with her husband seven years after marriage, then as a widow to the age of eighty-four. She never left the temple but worshiped there with fasting and prayer night and day" (Luke 2.36-37).

You are preparing a people to hear and speak Your word with prophetic power -- young and old, men and women (Acts 2.17-18). You are preparing a people who desire to never leave Your presence, but long to worship You in the constant communion of prayer with You night and day. Pour out upon us the anointing of Anna -- to worship and pray without ceasing.

As we begin each day in the silence of surrender in Your presence, Your Holy Spirit moves in our human spirits to lift our faces and open our hearts to You. Lord, let the flow of Your Spirit continue throughout each day in every activity, every encounter, every circumstance. As You abide in us and we abide in You, we need not ever leave the temple of Your presence, we need not ever cease to worship and praise and pray throughout our day.

Thank You for the blessing of experiencing this anointing at the International House of Prayer in Kansas City. In the "prayer furnace," they have not stopped worshipping You in prayer and praise for six years, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, never planning to stop. Surely the heavens are continually open above this place and the glory of Your manifest presence is as thick as honey. Release that passion for persevering in the pursuit of Your presence in our hearts. Then we will hear Your word more clearly, speak it more boldly, and live it more faithfully -- in constant communion with You. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen.

Be encouraged this day! In the Love of Jesus, Tommy Hays

12 july o5

to my funny friend who always has a question for everything ...

reason why i chose the name lilybride is because during my first trip to israel in 2002, the lord renamed me lily... then of course it didnt mean a thing to me, except that i somewhat remembered that the year before, someone had prophecised song of songs 2:1,2 over me when i was in canada.

in 2003/2004 when the lord started giving me language to this bridal journey, it dawn on me why i was renamed lily ...yup, lily the leaning bride; the flower whose stem is so long hence she cannot stand on her own but has to lean on her lover. lily, the flower which has 50 bulbs but they are all underground cos her fruitfulness is kept hidden so that only jesus her bridegroom will get the credit ... so to answer your question why lilybride, i guess when jesus created me, he desired that i would be his lily bride. guess even before i was in my mother's womb, he had already destined sos 8 over me. yes, i believe the day will come when people would say who is this coming out of the wilderness, leaning on her beloved ... that when they see me, they will see only jesus. so i guess with this, i must embrace my wilderness seasons, and i must go into the refiner's fire

11 july 05

in 14 days time, i will be leaving for israel ...

feelings - unsure what to expect yet excited cos i so know this is from jesus ... i guess, in my heart i am so certain that this trip will be a time where jesus will once again ravish my heart. that this will be a trip where i will say truly jesus, you r altogether lovely ... that i will pay the price just to be with u. my desire is that through meeting jesus face to face in his holy land, i will tuly say from the depth of my heart that i will let go of everything (phil 3) so that i can be the bride you want me to be... so i guess i should be excited overflowing right ... yet i must admit that i am filled with mixed emotions - guess i know that after this trip, many things will end n new things will begin so ... guess my head is excited but my heart ... hmmmm ... oh well ...

anyhow, the preparation thus far has been perfect - i've done so little yet god's done everything to thrill me ... everything. surely he is awesome. for starters, couple of weeks ago, i went to the immigration to renew my israel passport only to discover in the mrt that i had forgotten to bring my IC and my invitation letter (yea, u need an invitation letter to prove that u r an invited guest n not a terrorist to this beautiful nation) ... cos my queue number was 46, i immediately remembered psalm 46:10 - be still n know that i am god ... so was rather calm when the manager told me that it wld be difficult n that i may have to return tomorrow with all the document. anyhow, after five minutes of asking me what i was going to do in israel for 90 days, he decided that my thumbprint wld suffice for my passport renewal - yipee so i left the place happy n awed by jesus :) surely god is god ... all i need do is to be still and know that he is god.

and if that's not enough, accomodation,the usual stress factor in israel - safety n cost ... so god in his humour put me in a NUNNERY (yea, its called st peters n its next to city of david haha ... yup, n how much safer can i get) where i got a huge discount ie a single room with breakfast for only US$15 where the norm for a room like that is US$30 ... so ... yea, my jesus sure is working out the details. incidentially, around feb to march this year, i have been bugging geraldine, my cell member to find me a nunnery where i may go to learn contemplative so ... surely god is economical

to add on to his many miracles, sat morning, i was thinking that perhaps i shld purchase a laptop for this trip - made completely no sense to me so i decided against it. wala, made no sense but yet a desire god knew so that afternoon, my sister out of the blue asked if i wld need a laptop to bring on this trip cos she had purchased a new laptop ... so ... yes, yes, yes, god is really good. he is so awesome. so i am waiting daily for more surprises even as i am learning to lean on him. to trust in him even when i dont understand. even when i cannot see the good in things. i guess its my job to trust while its his job to make things happen - so must say its a cool deal